It is good to have such an experience, since then you will know how you feel and eventually realize you don't want that kind of life. No matter how much love you have, this type of relationship definitely will not bring you pleasure in the rest of your life. A healthy relationship is that both parties want to continue, want to solve problems if any, and respect others since they are in love.
My point is, if you feel humiliated, there is no point going on. This is not love. And this is definitely not a life you want to live.
Trust me, no one will die without some one aside. Only your mindset makes you believe so. Try to distract youself from this, and you will find a better person.